I had questions of why-what-happened happened…
happned, yesterday.. day before … a few months & years ago…
I lived my life.. ..continuously striving to find answers…
& many a times living under the burden of my self created illusions, sorrows & pain..
desperately praying for happiness & freedom…
In my inner reflections…what I realized NOW ,
that In the process of “what-happened” & “search for understanding of why-what-happened”
GOD with his forgiveness, love & blessings..
HE touched me, my heart & expanded it…
It was GOD’s miraculous way of providing me with what I needed…
not necessarily in the form I had asked for..
but definitely in the way much required…..
(& since I had failed to understand..
I had been only REACTING, instead of RESPONDING..
& all the while wondering why-what-happned happned..
Questioning GOD..& looking for answers….
& RE-ACTIONS & HALF-UNDERSTANDING definately CAUSE PAIN :))
Today, I feel expanded & at peace.. with myself..
I see & accept my imperfections..
& as I understand myself more…
more easy it’s becoming for me to love myself & my near & dear…
& other human beings of this same world..
who directly or indirectly were an instrumental part…
part of the journey/path which I was treading & trying to understand…
I thank thee…
for blessing me with HIS forgiveness, love& eternal happiness & bliss…..
Yes the Worldly duties keep pulling me back to this Human World..
I understand that they are much required.. for they are like the current/waves of the ocean/river..
which help live continue to go on & flow…
While the interactions with self.. They act like anchor..
so the SHIP remains stable & can resume the journey..
much required, irrespective of the waters, smooth or turbulent..
[It’s like finding detachment in attachment
& being aware that in detachment also lies root of attachment
One should not even get attached to his detachment, else is he really detached?? lol
JUST BE…( & enjoy the GAME), BE AWARE… (& do not get CHAINED to it too).. ]
So what I understand today is..
If we learn & can anchor ourselves..
then we free ourselves & conquered our fears..
We helps to start letting ourselves flow.. with the worldly flow…
Yes still there are some unanswered questions..
& I have full faith & hope that someday ..
may be they will also get answered..
when HE makes me 100% ready to receive the answers..
HE WILL bless me with required insights…
With that trust in HIM.. NOW I do not ask anything in particular from GOD..
neither happiness nor moksha… but an understanding of self..
for I know HE has been & will definitely keep blessing me with what I deserve.
Dear GOD, Thanks.. Thx for touching me & showering me with your LOVE & Blessing & Forgiveness..